Come On Get Happy!

It is bizarre for me to admit that I am for once a completely happy person. It is a strange occurance for me. Bad things yes are happening to me but for once I can look at them and not let them get me down. I woke up this morning and was late to work but just shrugged and said whatever. My paper for physics is not done and I am fully confident that it will be done before i have to turn it in. It is strange. I am usually full on paniced about everything...
i am currently writing this blog from my physics class, i decided that i had not update in a while and that it was time for it
tonight i will being going to a concert with a friend of mine, and i am totally stoked about it!
but yest there are only 4 minutes left in class so my update is being cut short...but more to come promise!

I wish i was Cinderella

I was I were CinderellaTo have a man love you so much after one glance that he would search through many kingdoms just to find you.To have a man who loved you for you and doesn't care about where you come fromI wish I was CinderellaI wish I was Sleeping BeautyTo have a man who would battle through thorns and danger all to save meA man who would risk it all just to spend the rest of his time one earth and beyond with just me.I wish I was Sleeping BeautyI wish I was BelleTo have a man so in love with me that he was willing to die to keep me safeA man who's heart of stone could be turned soft and compassionate when I was nearI wish I was BelleI wish I was BellaTo have a man who kept me safe because he couldn't bare to have anything happen to me.Who would do what he thought was necessary just so that I would be happy.I wish I was BellaI will never be a princess from a fairytale or the object of a handsome vampire's affection in any world outside of the one in my dreams. I am a normal everyday girl with a normal everday life. My prince has yet to show up by my side. But when he does, my fairytale will begin. And although I'm not Cinderella, Belle, Sleeping Beauty, or Bella. I am me and that is all my fairytale ending will need.But...until that day comes...I wish I was CinderellaWith a fairy godmother to guide my way and a loving prince to keep me safe until I grow oldI wish I was Cinderella

Someone To Watch Over Me

She stared blankly at the computer screen before her. The thoughts that were going through her mind concerned her. She wasn't doing well in school, it just didn't hold them same excitement for ther that it used to. Her friends were all slowly turning their backs on her and deserting her. The boy she liked wouldn't talk to her because he didn't think she was pretty enough or good enough for him. She was being picked apart by directors for being to tall, to fat, to blond, to pale...And now she sat there staring at the blank computer screen with an open word document waiting for the thoughts and insperation to come to her. But they never did.She sighed and closed her laptop, she placed it on the top of her dresser and leaned back on her bed and closed her eyes. Nothing seemed to be goingthe way she wanted it to.She had had so many problems in her past that she had thought that she had gotten by. She gripped her ands together and tried to keep herself distracted from doing anything rash.She stared at the poster of the boy hanging on her wall and wondered why it is that she liked him so much. His music had gotten her through the last hard time of her life.But then she thought, he would never know that. He would never know everything he and his music had done for her. He would never know who she was or care about her even for a fleeting second.Not only for the reason of thinking that he would never care but thinking about everything that was going on and thinking that she would never find anyone who cared the tears began to flow freely from her eyes. She was slipping back into her old ways and she couldn't afford that.She slowly thought about everyithing. She may be losing her friends but she was making new ones and there were still a few old ones who did care about her and would never let her down or let anything happen to her. She could go through school for now, she would talk to her advisor and her teachers and see what she could do. She couldn't let her parents down, they were so proud of her. She was going to get her priorites straight.She had finally found her insperation. She sat up and pulled her laptop onto her lap. She knew how to get her feelings out and began to type. When she was almost finished she looked at what she had written and smiled And typed up the final part.
And having realized all of this. There is still one thing that worries me. While I can fix everything else to the best of my ability, I wonder if I will ever find someone to care for me the way I care for them. Because through all of this it would have been nice to go through it with someone. I think that is all i need...Someone to watch over me.

Que Sera Sera

So faire is almost over :( I must say that I am sad to see it end...
Oh the stories that I have to tell and the rants that I have to go on...

So at work on Saturday it was a very interesting day! One of my co-workers decided that it was time that something happened between the guys I like and I. So she sent him a flower in my name with out telling me! I was like O.O <- just like that! and when the rose seller told him who i was it looked like he started to laugh. Then he walked up to me and was like "So...did you send a flower my way?" and I said "haha...yeah" and blushed and then! he reached out and kissed mah hand! and then said thank you and that he hopes to see me around. but then didn't say anything to me at all on Sunday but looked at me but no talking :( boys are silly! (no offense to any boys who are reading this...but you really are)

My roomie moved in! She is quite fantastic! And is sitting here writing her own blog as well :) so no worries! this should be a good year!

As I am sitting here writing this the song "Love Story" by Taylor Swift started playing...I am in love with this song! Definatly my number one song right now! It is amazing and if you haven't heard it...I definatly suggest going and checking it out!

So my first rant is about the lovely Taylor Swift and about the one and only Joe Jonas and their break up. He broke up with her over the phone. And while I respect that he did what he thought was best most likely I still think it majorly sucks! Like really! No one wants to be broken up with over the phone :( that's not cool fellas! if you're gonna break up with someone you should try to do it in person! not over the phone not over email not with a post it! that's just ridiculous!

that is all i have floating around in my head right now...but be on the look out for more!
xoxo
Pale Angel

I Solemly Swear

Ok so I was sitting here tonight thinking and worrying about things that i have no control over
and i have no made a resolve
i will no longer worry about things that i can't control
as part of the new me...we'll see how long i can stick to it, but i'm gonna try!
but i have realized that i am ruining my life worrying and it needs to stop
so that is my resolve :)
just thought i'd share
with my ever exciting evening being sick and watchin tv and movies
yup yup
heres hopin
xoxo
Pale Angel

Teardrops on my Guitar

So there's this guy...and I don't think he knows that everytime he smiles he glows and makes me want to smile to. No matter how bad of a day I'm having if I think about him I want to smile and if I get to see him I smile even bigger. Dorky right? I dunno what's come over me readers...maybe i've caught the lovebug haha who knows
but one things for sure i'm not gonna let it go
at the same time i have caught another bug and this one is for sure not of the love variety. Yup I am sick...no fun.
And I found out that I am getting a new roommate this weekend. I talked to her and she seems pretty cool so there will hopefully be no worries :)
On the other hand i am now running myself ragged i have NO idea how i am currently managing to function its ridiculous and now i have even more to add to my plate.
I am going to be up all night tonight...totally procrastinating on my homework right now
and tomorrow night i'll be up all night sewing...YAY ME
hopefully that won't be too hard though...
also tomorrow i think i shall be going to get my haircut...maybe a combo of hilary duff, reese witherspoon, and alexis bledel...sound weird? haha i think it should work out in the end :)
oh well...thats all i know for now
i'm debating canceling this blog because...well...no one reads it...and i don't blame them it's quite boring...
ah well
xoxo
Pale Angel