It's Cool We're Just Friends

i want a boy who would sing to me at random moments. someone who is more goofy than romantic. a boy who would throw stuffed animals at me when i'm acting dumb. . a guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh. he'd play with my hair all the time & surprise me with 25 cent rings. someone who i could lay on a blanket with to count the stars. we'd buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other but mostly ; someone who would be my best friend & would never break my heart. he would just always make me smile

A boy like that is hard to find, but I can't get him off my mind. Maybe it is naive, but being the hopless romantic that i am, i believe that there is a guy like that actually out there. The perfect guy.

But in todays day and age, real gentleman are hard to find...most girls don't find "prince charming" they find something close. but prince charming seems to be an urban myth.

being swept off your feet by a guy on a white horse seems to be a dream. A dream that i constantly wish would come true.

I mean if he doesn't come on a white horse i will be okay, but to find that guy would be amazing.

Being asked out these days is hard. Especially for a girl like me who can never seem to get past being the "best friend" or the "little sister" like figure. The one guys go to when they need advice on girls. the one they get over protective of, but never have the need because all guys see her the same way they do. as nothing more than a friend. I must say it does get annoying...alot. but it is something that i have come to deal with. that guys would rather tell me about the other girls in their life than date me, that when guys pass me on the street they'd rather stare at my mom or whoever else i'm with than at me.

Sorry for the rant on that...but it was something I was thinking about after I watched a youtube video...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DcE_m4GO7wo

that one to be exact...i see nothing wrong with it don't get me wrong, it's hillarious!!!but it just got me thinkin ya know?

oh and today i discovered the real meaning behing "I've been working on the railroad" song!!

haha oh well that's all for now!

xoxo

Pale Angel

Got Me Goin Crazy

Alright dear readers, it's time...to share with you my not so secret obsession...the Jonas Brothers...yes it's true...for those of you who have suddenly become very disappointed with me...i'm very sorry, but you're going to have to get over that one.

So anyways the point of that was to segway into my monday evening, when i was 8th row at their concert! yup me 8th row!!

haha anyways

i went to the concert with my bro :( because apparently he likes them and wanted to go...i was like okay...

but it was absolutely amazing! their opening act Demi Lovato was very good and flirted with my bro a little bit, which of course made him a very happy dude!

then the Jonas Brothers came on and performed! they were fantastic!!

and I have been so tired the past day that I haven't been able to write and so i apologize

but check out these pics...doesn't it look like he's looking right at me??
made my day right there!!
yes it was very exciting for me :) he's mah favorite. haha i dunno i could be losing my mind... but anyways
that's all i know right now...
i'm watching good eats...ace of cakes just finished
it has succeded in making me very hungry!
so therefore it is food time :)
yay!!!
haha sorry it took so long!
xoxo
Pale Angel

Creepers, Parks, and Engagement Parties

Today was a wonderfuly eventful day in the life of this looney theatre major. It began by me wakin up late as usual (really i don't understand why my mother has issues waking me up, because then she complains that i don't get up at a reasonable hour! i'm like really? just wake me up! i'll get up!) and then rushing and packing all of my things up and getting in the car and starting the three hour drive back home. which ended up being four because we got "lost" and by lost i mean we took the wrong exit and took the long way around. very exciting and it didn't bug me at all...until my ipod died an hour before we got home :( what is with that nonsense?! i mean really!
we got home around noonish and hung around the house like a bum checking up on my email and everything, ordering books for school...you know fun stuff...
then i got a text from one of my best friends telling me that i had to come to the park...so i did...we had fun looking at ducks and talking about the fun that i had up in PA, like random shouting out the window at poor defenseless people (yeah i'm a horrible person, what can i say?)
but then they were being weird so i ran away, and they chased for a few minutes and then stopped and i kept going...and wouldn't you know? i would wind up by myself being followed by a creeper! who walked up to me after circling me for a few minutes and said "you alone here darlin?" to which i got all wide eyed and said "uhhh no!" and ran...and he followed me until he saw my friends at the top of the small "island" and bolted I was like "yeah you better run!". haha but not really i was far to freaked out!
after that i had to rush to my friends engagement party, which i had to make an apperance at because i am one of her bridesmaids (yay me!) and of course i was surronded my couples who were cuddling and making out, until a couple of my other friends showed up and we decided to jump in the pool, which was sooo cold! and then went to the bonfire and got all dry, so we were good!
now i'm sittin at home watching the tv once again thinking about everything.
I have no idea what makes some people "better" or "more fortunate" than others. it really confuses me how some people can have the most wonderful boyfriend and still want more. i'm very confused...i don't know...someone needs to explain this to me...but anyways...time for ice cream and skittles!
xoxo
Pale Angel

My Strongest Suit

Another great friday night, sitting around watching tv. Now granted, what else am I going to do? But it is not the fact that I am sitting around watching tv by myself that is interesting to me.
It is what I'm watching that enthrals me this evening...
I am sitting around watching What Not To Wear, a show where they give people who are "style challenged" $5000 dollars to go to NYC to shop as long as they follow the two style gurus advice. now i don't know about you...but being given $5000 to go and shop in one of the biggest cities with the most amazing clothes in the country, would be enough incentive for me to intentionally dress badly so that i could go to NYC and spend money on clothes...shallow? eh maybe a little...but i mean really...i honestly don't believe the people on this show dress this badly! NOBODY!!!! and i mean nobody!!!dresses like that! it's just crazy!
but yes...i am still stranded in a hotel room...getting a headache from crying so much...it is a wonder to me that my body can produce so many tears...its crazy
ah well...
i'm off...maybe to go royally mess up my wardrobe so that i can go to NYC ;)
xoxo
Pale Angel

True Love

I am currently sitting in a lonely hotel room in another state after having attended my great-grandfathers funeral and internment (sp?) today. but his passing is not what made me cry or is the focus of my blog today. you see since i was told last thursday that he had passed i was having a hard time crying. i mean sure i cried because he was gone and was depressed, but not to the extent of everyone else in my family.
my great-grandfather left behind his widow, my great-grandmother. and i went to go and see her with my aunt and my cousins.
we sat by her bed and she told us the story of how she and my great-grandfather met and fell in love. this is what made me tear up.
my great-grandfather was walking on a street in 1932 and saw my great-grandmother. and they fell in love, love at first sight. i honestly always thought that it was a myth, but now after hearing their story i am an avid believer in true love and love at first sight. and knowing that it is real, is good news for a hopeless romantic like me.
my great-grandfather died at the age of 97, his wife is 93. they were married for 76 years. had 3 kids. 9 grandkids and 16 great grand kids.he worked for the steel factory, working from the bottom to the top at a management postion at the top of the company. he was an award wininng golfer. he had an amazing life and was loved by so many people.
we sat there with my great-grandmother and my tears finally came, looking at her and how much they loved each other, he died right there by her side.
and it made me wonder if that could ever happen for me. she sat there looking at the love of her life as they lowered him to his resting place and seeing her tears and seeing how much she loved him made me wonder, if i will ever find that guy for me. and if we will live together like that...hmm i don't know
but now,i have been told that we are going out for late night ice cream in his memory.
time to go
xoxo
pale angel

In the Beginning

It is hard to say what draws a person to blogging. Me I'm sitting here at a laptop in the middle of the night, when I should be taking my Music Final, and decided that I wanted to start my own blog, so here I sit typing this out. I do not clame to be an interesting person or to have an interesting life. I don't know the circumstances surronding those I write about, other than what happens to them while they are around me. I do not own them and what I write comes from my perspective.
I do however know, that I am a looney theatre major. No I am not a crazy nutcase, I promise. This blog will give you a little bit of an insight into my life and how crazy people like me function.
haha enjoy :]
xoxo
PaleAngel