If you have ever wondered what it's like to feel alone in the world. I could probably tell you, it's only monday and already i'm not having a great week.
In the past few weeks i have been blog bitched twice, yelled at numerous times, been called a whore 3 times, and have felt bad about all of it constantly.
i messed up an audition for a part that i wanted more than anything today.
i don't know how to be me anymore
mostly because i don't know who me is anymore
people have picked away at who i thought i was and now i'm just a shell
if you had asked me who i was even a month ago i would have been able to tell you with stregth and certainty
but now i can't even begin to think of who i am, because it is not the same person at all
i don't know who i am because so many people have challenged it and made me feel bad about it
things that i thought were helpful were just a burden on others and apparently made them feel worse
i don't know anymore
i have spent so much time crying lately that it is absolutely ridiculous
sorry that it was so depressing today...but it's all i have left in me
xoxo
Pale Angel
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